Friday, May 20, 2011

Recapturing Beauty-Day 9

Day 9

The Challenge:Body Kindness

Be kind to your body today. Take a nap, go for a walk, take a bubble bath or cook yourself a healthy meal. Whatever you do, do it with kindness

Today I took a nap and a bath and went to dinner for myself. Kenzie has colic at night which is miserable and hasn't been sleeping well this whole week. She's been eating waking every 1 1/2 to 2 hours. Last night I finally cracked and called my midwife. She saw me this morning and suggested using a Gumdrop binkie, which has worked wonders today and tonight, and to use to stretch out her eating. It has worked great today so we shall see how tomorrow goes. I'm still running on low and really tired but feel more hopeful after today!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Recapturing Beauty-Day 8

Day 8

The Challenge: Self Talk

Pay attention to your thoughts today. Ask yourself, How do my thoughts make me feel? Is what I'm thinking really true? Practice challenging your negative thoughts and replacing them with more positive and truthful ones.

This is a hard one for me. I can really beat myself up with my self talk and I know it. I need to do a better job of thinking and speaking to myself positively. When I worked out today I did tell myself I was feeling stronger. I felt so much better mentally after I worked out to that it helped me to look at my body today and know that it will change and get to where I want it to be.

Recapturing Beauty-Day 7

"You can't live your life worrying that the world is staring at you. When you let people's opinions make you self-conscious you give away your power...the key to feeling (confident) is to always listen to your inner self-(the real you)."

Jeffrey R. Holland

Day 7

Challenge: Tune out the Media

I have failed misserably...mainly because Kenzie has NOT been doing great the last few days and I didn't read my book ahead of time to see what the challenge was. So I will try to do the no media tomorrow. Part of this challenge was to enjoy nature and family and I did do that today. My sister Julie came out to our house with Ryan and Audrey and we went to the local park and had a picnic. It was a lot of fun and so nice to finally enjoy the weather!

Recapturing Beauty-Day 6

Day 6
Challenge: No Bad Talk

Refrain from talk about weight or shape of self and others. Be aware of how often you compare yourself to others, and evaluate how this makes you feel.

WELL, I did the best I could. I now realize how much weight and body image is apart of almost every aspect of what goes on in this world. I did a good job not talking about it but it definitely was apart of my thoughts as I got ready and did things throughout the day.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Recapturing Beauty-Day 5

Day 5

The Challenge: Exercise for Fun

I decided for this one to make it a "fun" type of exercise to wrestle and play around with my boys. It was only for like 15 minutes but was so fun to make them laugh and get down on their level and play. I need to do this more often and I know they will appreciate it as I do. It was a great way to bond and get my heart rate up just a bit!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Recapturing Beauty-Day 4

Day 4

Challenge: Get ready on the inside

Today I was supposed to spend the same amount of time it's take me to get ready and take the same amount of time in service to someone, reading my scriptures, meditating, etc.

Well today being Sunday you would think I would have succeeded today at doing my challenge, but I didn't. I woke up and right after I woke up Jordan left to go to St. Maries to speak in their ward as part of his assignment being on the High Council. So, I went right into getting kids ready for church, myself ready as well, nursing Kenzie, getting dinner in the crock pot, starting a load of laundry, yes I do laundry on Sunday, and getting the church bag ready to go. You would think this should only take a couple of hours but I literally spent from 8am to 11am doing all of this. It's crazy around here! So, I haven't done the challenge necessarily but I totally know I need to do a better job of it but right now I just don't think it's going to be my top priority till my little girl is a little older! But I know I need to make sure I'm incorporating something spiritual every day into my life.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Recapturing Beauty-Day 3

Day 3

Pretty is something your born with. But beautiful? That's an equal opportunity adjective.

The Challenge: 10 Positive Things

Make a list of 10 positive things you like about yourself that have nothing to do with your appearance, and 10 positive things you like about your appearance.

Why? Your perception of yourself includes the physical. We won't pretend it's not important...physical factors are part of the mortal world we live in. We've challenged you to make two lists because both your inner and outer beauty affect you and there will be times you feel insecure about both. Refer back to your lists and remember the positive.

It is unusually quiet around my house right now. Baby sleeping peacefully on my bed, ahhhh and those two crazy boys are at their cousin Ryan's birthday party with their daddy! What better time to do my challenge and then after I'm done I'm going to go snuggle with my little Kenz and give her a big kiss and fall asleep next to her, one of my FAVORITE things!

10 things I like about myself that have nothing to do with my appearance

1.) I thrive being around people
2.) I quickly compliment others when I notice something I like about them
3.) I am kind
4.) I'm quick to forgive
5.) I love helping others
6.) I do not procrastinate
7.) I'm good at public speaking
8.) When I want something done I work really hard to accomplish whatever it is
9.) I am a people pleaser...this is good and bad
10.) When I say I am going to do something I do it

10 Things I like about my appearance

1.) I like my eyes
2.) I like my eyelashes
3.) I like my wrists...weird I know but they are like the only skinny part on me right now
4.) I like how voluptuous I am right now....I would have killed it back in the day when fat was hot
5.) I like my lips or at least Jordan tells me how luscious they are ha ha ha ha
6.) I like my nursing mommy upper half
7.) I like my chubby cheeks. I've had them my whole life, skinny or not, and now my little girl does too
8.) I like my fingernails right now. They are long for once.
9.) I like my long hair, but not the color and that will change in a few weeks when I see Whitney
10.) I like that I have small hands cause I'm a girl and I can't imagine having man hands!

If you dwell on the things you're not, you'll miss out on the things you really are.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Recapturing Beauty-Day 2

The Challenge: God's Definition of Beauty

I was asked to read Pres. Monson's talk "Canaries with Gray on their Wings" and "True Beauty" by Lynn G. Robbins.

This is the main point from Pres. Monson's talk...
Nearly 60 years ago, while I was serving as a young bishop, Kathleen McKee, a widow in my ward, passed away. Among her things were three pet canaries. Two, with perfect yellow coloring, were to be given to her friends. The third, Billie, had yellow coloring marred by gray on his wings. Sister McKee had written in a note to me: “Will you and your family make a home for him? He isn’t the prettiest, but his song is the best.”

I may not be the prettiest bird, but I want my song to be the best. It has always been a challenge to feel good about yourself when there are countless others prettier, smarter, skinnier, etc out there. But the one thing I think that I've found that has helped me the most is that when I am looking at others I am comparing my worst to their best. But the Lord always compares my best to my best and never to someone else. Over the years I've come to realize that all the outward stuff goes away, especially as I'm nearing thirty and seeing more and more wrinkles, and the only thing that is going to truly matter is how I treat others and if I'm happy with myself. If I'm doing those two things NOTHING else matters. If someone won't talk to me or be around me because I'm not thin enough, wear the right clothes, or rich enough than they aren't who I want to be around because all that stuff goes away and is so superficial. I'm grateful for my Savior and for the gospel. Those two things in my life allow me to change and become a better person every day...what more could we ask for! I truly can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!!!

Recapturing Beauty-Day 1

In my ward last night, our Relief Society decided to do a 10 day "Recapturing Beauty" challenge. I decided to journal my feelings, thoughts, emotions on here since I tend to journal more through my blog than an actual "journal".

Day 1
Today's challenge is to write for at least 10 mintues and express gratitude for all the things my body allows me to do. I am to refrain from weighing myself today and throughout the rest of the challenge.
This comes at a great time as I just had my 3rd baby so I would have to say carrying a baby and giving birth to that child are things I am grateful my body allows me to do. There are so many women not able to get pregnant or if they do they have a hard time keeping the pregnancy, etc and I am so thankful I've never had to ever worry about those things. I am grateful that I have hands to type and eyes that can read. I am grateful for my overall health and well being. I have never been REALLY sick and have good health. I am grateful for my the way my body looks right now. It is not how I want it to be forever but I know it will get stronger and more "firm" with time. Weighing myself right now won't be hard for me cause I'm giving myself some time to settle into this new stage in my life. I have the next 30 years + to get my health and body back to where I want it to be but I only have these little babies and sweet children for such a short time and they should be my focus. Speaking of which I know I need to more concerned with caring for them and loving them, than having my house picked up and clean and me showered and presentable, which is something I struggle more with than my weight. I have a hard time feeling ok to go out in public if I'm not showered and don't have some makeup on and my hair somewhat presentable. So, if someone see's me totally unkept and looking like I just rolled out of bed, I probably did and am trying to be more relaxed in this area :) !

Lastly, I would like to post on here the reason for posting the "ugly" dark makeup under my eyes photo from Kenzie's birth. I was so excited to be having my baby during the day and especially where I had been able to do my hair and get makeup on. I was SOOOO upset when Jordan showed me this photo and there I am with my supposed water proof makeup on and looking like a crack addict. I know I just had a baby but come on! I got after Jordan for not telling me I had black makeup under my eyes...please let me know so I can wipe it away before you take a picture of me! So once again I am looking like the typical mom after having a baby, completely exhausted! I would just once like to look amazing after having a baby like so many women do, but I've also realized this probably won't ever happen as I will probably be having my next baby with a midwife and natural! :)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Kenzie Anne Robison-FINALLY HERE!

Our sweet little Kenzie Anne arrived into the world on April 26th at 1:42pm. She is 9 lbs 14 oz, 21 inches and she has a big 'ol head measuring in at 15 in.

My contractions started that morning at 2am put didn't progress into anything and by 5am I was back asleep. I had already decided to go in and have Carrie, my midwife, strip my membranes at 8am. I started having contractions immediately and decided after timing them for a few hours to go in at 11:30am. I had Kenzie in the water which helped so much with the labor pain but not totally :)! I had normal contractions with a minute on and a minute off. My back hurt really bad during labor and my tailbone and found out why after I had her! She had both hands up on her face, so not only did she have a big head but she decided to make it even bigger with her hands! The midwives said I only pushed for 7 minutes when I started and well, if you felt what I felt I knew it would all be over if I just bore down and pushed hard! It was an exhausting, amazing, and wonderful experience! She is beautiful and has really dark hair. Her cheeks are so chunky like her mom's and they make her features look so petite on her face! We love that she has chunky rolls on her arms and legs already and so PLUMP!
Daddy is thoroughly enjoying his sweet little girl and so are the boys! Jace of course is OBSESSED and Sean is being very sweet and tender, for now. I'm extremely sore and not moving well but know it will pass in a few days with rest. I knew she was big but not this BIG! We are grateful to our Heavenly Father for her being born safely and being so healthy! We feel so blessed!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

It's been a while...

I can't believe it's been 5 months since I posted ANYTHING! But the majority of those 5 months were spent feeling sick and not wanting to do anything unless it was absolutely necessary! We found out that we are having a girl in December and have been so excited. Jace is once again a crazed child when it comes to my belly and Sean doesn't even seem to realize I have a watermelon growing inside of me! I'm feeling nervous/excited to have a third as I seem to not be able to keep up with what I already am responsible for, but I know once I'm in it, I'll somehow survive. I was recently put back into Young Women's after a short stint in Relief Society, and so happy to be back. I don't know what it is about Young Women's but I LOVE IT! They are so much fun and it is so exciting to teach them the gospel and hear about their lives and how they are trying to fit everything into it. I have NO desire to ever be their age again, but somehow feel younger just rubbing shoulders with them.

There really has not been too much else going on. Just preparing for the new baby. When the nursery is done I'll probably post pics!